I woke up this morning feeling such discontent with my life. I can say that right now, I am not happy. The tears rolled down my face as I prayed for the strength to get through another long, exhausting day. My life has not been going the way that I’d hope, and it has left me feeling very discouraged.

I have come to the realization that some things in my life are not going to happen like I want them to, and I’m going to have to accept that. Some dreams that I’ve had may not be God’s will for my life. Some people that I’d hope would be in my life forever, may not be. The uncertainty of the future can be very unsettling.

After all of the disappointment in my life, I still remain hopeful that there is so much better coming. I know that God has me and my situation in His hands. His grace is covering my children and me. Although I get anxious and fearful about our needs, I know that He has been taking care of us and will continue to.

During this time in my life, I feel like I can’t hear as clearly from God as I would like to. Sometimes I wish that I could just hear His audible voice clearly guiding me. The silence can be frustrating, but His presence in my life is still so evident.

In these moments of gloom, I have to choose to fight through until they pass. I have to remind myself how blessed I truly am. I may not have everything that I want, but I have everything that I need. My family is healthy, and we are doing ok. I have gone through so much and have come so far. I have to keep in mind that the things that God allows us to go through are meant to teach us and bring us closer to Him.

Although I feel heavy and it’s hard to see past the clouds, I know the sun will come out again.

Scriptures of the Day:

Matthew 6:26:34:

²⁶ Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? ²⁷ And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? ²⁸ And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, ²⁹ yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. ³⁰ But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? ³¹ Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. ³³ But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.³⁴ Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

A song that spoke to me this morning:

The Same, by Madison Ryann Ward